adamsparke

Yes its me. Weirdofish, I know you hate my guts badly, I don't blame you at all, I know how bad I was REALLY treating you when we were together. I shame myself for being too happy & too demanding. I know that's the most terrible things you never liked about me the most. Weirdofish, I am sorry for being a bastered to you & your feelings & not trying to understand better of the situation that was going on when you were most bothered by my visits. I know that by now I should be over you, but there's a little light of care in me that's looking at you. I get many flashbacks at times & I fight them off as much as I can. But they w

Wow....its been forever & ever since I've ever made any journal entry. So....as the tittle says....I just miss her, I can't help but just have flash backs that come to me at times of our happiest memories. I know she HATES me because of how I couldn't stop being so dam attached to her. I know I am stupid for that, I won't deny it at all. She has not only blocked me, she refuses to hear me out, by how I have changed SOOOO much since the last we spoke. If I ever get one chance to speak to her again....I want to not only apologize, I will make anything up to her. I know by now I should be over her, but there's that very little light left in

I have lost the best thing in my entire life.......Weirdofish.......the one I protected.......the one who I sacrificed for. Now im hated like I killed something importaint to her & thought it was funny. For 7 years, we have always been so close friends.....now......we aren't ever going to be ever again. Why hate me like I am her dad? Why hate everything about me? Why cant I show how I have changed? All these questions will never become answered. I have been kicked out of her life because of my stuped requesting........I hate myself for every time I asked for a new pic of something......I haven't asked her tooooo much, but not the point...