Listening to: nothing
Reading: My responses
Watching: No more cable
Playing: PS3 Sonic Unleashed
Yes its me.
Weirdofish, I know you hate my guts badly, I don't blame you at all, I know how bad I was REALLY treating you when we were together. I shame myself for being too happy & too demanding. I know that's the most terrible things you never liked about me the most. Weirdofish, I am sorry for being a bastered to you & your feelings & not trying to understand better of the situation that was going on when you were most bothered by my visits. I know that by now I should be over you, but there's a little light of care in me that's looking at you. I get many flashbacks at times & I fight them off as much as I can. But they won't go away. I need the privilege to speak to you again to confess up my pathetic mistakes & ways. I have tossed them out of my life forever & made a new path in life I wish to share with you. No, I won't demand any pics we both know you hate to make. All I could ask for is to speak to you again & start over from scrap, I know you are forcoused on you ever so loven QFA. I still miss that magnificent story you peaced together on your own.
I just want to say to you, Weirdofish, I am sorry for my stuped demandings, pushing our relationship, not calling before coming over, & not giving you time to yourself. I have made too many mastakes with someone as wonderful as you, I should've reolized it when we were together. Now that I do, I am ready to take responsibility & change all that. Ive been told bad things about you from friends & even family.....when I hear those, I cant help but feel very affended. I don't think of you that way at all, because that little light that's there is keeping me from lowering myself down to the levels of people we had to put up with in school. I know you HATE HATE me, but don't think I am NO different then before. Believe it or not, I have changed A LOT. You have a magnificent talent no one else posseses. One's art style is one's only, no one else has your style. Even if others have better looking styles, they don't have yours. I need to make closer to the dreadful past between us & make a new begging for us both.
I really miss you, & I could only wish to have you a part of my life again. I PROMISE you I won't be same stuped demanding, depressing old me. I am a different person now with my GOOD old habbits intacked, please Weirdofish, don't HATE me. I've never wanted to hert you ever.....I was blinded by my pathetic happiness & I shame myself for doing that forever. I hope that one day you will speek to me face to face again so we can close the doors of the terrabe past & make a better relationship for both of us. You have always been my closest friend in my life, you also made a big difference in my life as I did for you. Your friend.......adamsparke.
PS: Olive & Smuge say hi & misses you.